haven’t changed the sheets
i lie
and think of you
and me
and how we used to be
it’s getting old
my thoughts of you
they drive me crazy
they make me lazy
i don’t want to move
i just need to prove
i don’t need you
let me proceed
i just lie and read
but then i stop
and i get lost
and i’m like
damn
i miss you
and your lips
and how i’d squeeze your hips
fell for your tricks
but i don’t even care
and maybe that’s what’s sad
i just feel crazy
on the daily
i’d just like to move on
already
-
-
i liked the way you
walked
talked
the confidence
your energy
and how you treated me
when i thought
things were gonna bei looked and saw no flaws
cause you were perfect
but it was just a sad movie
why does this always happen to me
i felt lucky for once
thought i found my forever friend
but i guess
things are always
destined to
end -
beautiful
to me, that wasn’t so crucial
i guess that’s rather unusual
in this day and age
everyone wants to be beautiful
but what’s beautiful
to everyone but me
isn’t so beautiful
it’s so brutal
how usual -
remember how you would ignore me
endlessly
while i was laying in hospice
with the phone right next to me
you were on my mind
while i watched death
surfaceshould have been the moment i knew
but when you’re obsessed
everything starts to repress
everyone said
let this one get away
but i sat and cried for help
with nothing left -
crazy to the core
you were so lazy
i almost sent you daisies
but everyone told me that was crazy
i was obsessing
trying to add some dressing
imagine if i told you
all the things that crossed my mind
and how i loved you
unconditionally
how stupid would i have looked
when you left me
all hooked
up in you
what was i supposed to do
i wish you knew
how much i loved you -
roses
i guess they’re red
violets
they’re not really blue
damn
all i do is think about
you
how it might have gone
and what i did wrong
can’t get you off my mind
and those dark sad eyes
but i guess
one day
it’ll pass -
so reserved
i sat and observed
how you spun in circles
in purple
i wasn’t very verbal
but i saw
all you were
i set down my liqueur
and thought
do you concur
not really
i turned around and looked out the window
the city
it was so beautiful
and as usual
so were you
it was not disputable
and i didn’t care
if the feeling was mutual
because when i looked at you
you were so beautiful
and so delusional
‘cause as usual
you thought you weren’t -
one day I won’t be in love with you
I’ll just love you
and the occasional thought of you
might cross my mind
but it’ll be bittersweet -
a little mischievous
a little dark
a little lost
a little gone
atop a grand facadethe impact
i admit, i blacked
i cracked
no interest to interact
i packed
i did overreact
but i did
subtract
a fraud, in facti didn’t run abroad
i didn’t call a vice squad
i didn’t ask for a word from god
i didn’t wear a mask
i threw out my flask
got a tattoo
and said screw you
i pulled throughfound out who i was
look at me now
all profound
didn’t end up in the ground
