what you did wasn’t right
you just kept quiet
hooking up left and right
as i tried to call
as i took the fall
lying in hospice
as you held no promise
“your clients”
didn’t tell me what was on your mind
was this a show
was i supposed to know?
-
-
begged for five minutes
please
i hate to beg
i feel annoying
please
this stings like bees
i drop to my knees
so sudden ease
the breeze is such a tease
the squeeze
it knew
it seized
it was freed
i’m so sorry
i couldn’t understand
as soon as we began -
like a pro
gave me a show
you sure knew what you were doing
made it look like i didn’t know
took me home
you made it snow
took me into the unknown
made it whole
heard a moan
felt your soul
you sure know how to hit the note
how to blow
slap you on the nose
suppose i would have interrupted
bid adieu
would have that meant anything to you? -
standing on the corner of sunset
i saw it in your eyes, i saw the intensity
it was nice, but i stood in my armor, didn’t want horror
your eyes, they looked warmer, could tell you were a charmer
maybe i should flip a quater and cross the border
remind me of a new yorker
but hopefully you’re not a martyr or capable of murder
no longer in a corner trying to barter
i wonder if there’s something underlying
something i shouldn’t be buying
something i’m just not finding
something you’re hiding
should i be riding
should i be driving
wait, i think i’m shining
am i smiling
i forgot what this felt like, it’s blinding
i guess i’m surviving
no longer crying or dying
i guess i might be realizing
that there’s something other than you that might be satisfying
i think i found something and it’s electrifying -
got what i needed
finally freed
my closure
regained composure
from long overexposure
this wild rollercoaster
i would trade it for nothing
redo it over and over
think of you as my four leaf clover
who taught me a lot
who i’d never give a second thought
just hiding in my blind spot
and hiding when i was shot
but sometimes things aren’t meant to be
and sometimes things are all they’re supposed to be -
every time you get that ding
that bing
that email
it’ll remind you of me
i’ll be in your mind
telling you how we aligned
you’ll remember how i was kind
how i was always just trying to get by
how i left nothing confined
when i broke that glass of wine
you would ask what i was laughing at
how i would say nothing
you just made me shine
felt like i was nine
how i would lose track of time
how i tried to make everything fine
how i just wanted you to be mineyes, i’d like another glass
red wine -
talk soon
but that was a few ago
sat in queue for high noon
in the blue
should’ve taken that cruise
instead of looking like a fool
soon i’ll move
turn on the news
see you died
it was true
you couldn’t remove the costume
let me in
and tell me the truth -
i waited outside a couple times
but the thing was, i couldn’t even cry
you reside so close by
i see you occasionally and you replyi know you could provide
but i’m a pearl, not a call girl
i guess that’s my fault ‘cause you asked
and i shut you down, but it was in my gut
you probably thought what?i’m sorry, i was lost but that didn’t cost
‘cause you found someone
that doesn’t happen in this town
although i smell something fishy
i know you’re busy
but watch out for someone risky
it might get stickyi’m not asking you to miss me
‘cause you don’t really know me
but i don’t want a blow to your show
i’d rather see you feel whole
than to hit a stop in the roadwhen you take the boat
listen for a sound and don’t drown -
blackouts
wild nights
what’s feeling alive
take the dive
stroke the chime
people deprive
life is so nice
some things fall
ends up being right
black becomes white
everything i knew
takes flight
i can finally sleep at night -
no cuts
no glory
just force
lust no morelove it
fine
then tat itnot here to create
just to liberate
live free
die free
endlessly
