throw me to bed
show me how strong
tell me everything wrong
how i drive you crazy
how we don’t belong
one ear out the other
i don’t care
as long as you’re here
you could kill me
i’d play along
just so i could hear the song
i don’t care if i’m gone
just as long as you play satan
and i play god
this is hiroshima
now drop the bomb
-
-
lay upon a tree
thoughts
could i love an amputee
if once whole
stand, take a stroll
sing my tune
think of you
the usual
mid-afternoon
i swoon
pre-june, before the harpoon
way before the monsoon
that typhoon hit me like i never knew
i wish you were a blue moon
but i’ve come attune
i think of you as i rinse
see the moon
the laughs
stroking your hair
wish you were here
it’s not fair how i compare
i wish i could exit this square
i swear, the hot air
it wasn’t fair
it’ll take awhile to repair
but eventually
i’ll sit in my yacht chair
remember, smile and agree
that i would have loved you as an amputee -
take the sidewalk
a pseudonym
i walk, bite an orange
life… it’s foreign
the corner, that’s where i bought my heroin
his name was aaron
he was probably a mormon
an orphan too
wouldn’t be surprised if he held a warrant
but these are things in my head
as my pseudonym lies in bed
the passing sirens
i wonder
are you still alive
are you soaring
did you hit a fortune
and die without torture? -
no photographs
just emotions
so many mixtures
all i thought was all i knew
i laid there
holding on to you
no phone in sight
all attention lost
focused all on you
that i forgot about me, too
i look through my phone
all i have
pictures of you
none of us
i just sat there
road the bus
and got so
damn
lost
and now i’m afraid to enter
any adventure -
thought i could save you
never thought i would break for you
as i felt safe with you
said i would wait for you
would play the game for you
feel the pain for you
go insane for you
just to lay with you
but today
what a shame
it was never okay
we deserve to be embraced
to feel grace, receive love
not just give or have to bid
ask for you to commit
it should just emit
it should just fit
it should come with it
stick together
like we’re chewing gum
the wooing
the swooning
no proving
move together like fluid
no words
our body language, so fluent
how it should be
but not everything goes
like we thought it would
or like it should -
september eleventh
let me know when you land
i’ll always remember
regardless of for the better
forgetting the blender and how tender
all the letters
the center
just us two
the members
it’s nice to love
someone forever
even if it was just the summer
and you were just a runner
i’ll always be under
regardless of thunder
the wonder
because like i said
it’s nice to love someone
for forever
even if it’s the one that said
whatever -
living without regrets
just taking a sip
going with the flow
living for the show
although
sometimes it dries
things become fried
the wires catch fire
dabble and acquire
a fine desire
to live on a high wire
all while playing in crossfire
that’s life
