you play non-stop
in my thoughts
when will it stop?
laid down
opened shop
hit the block
wondered around
knocking me down
want a crown
after you’re done on the town?
-
-
sunset to franklin
where we dined
food for thought
our conversations
my smile, your eyes
how i would die
i can’t enter
without a tangled shiver
it’s so confusing in here
looking down at the chair
wondering if somehow, some way, some day
you’d end up sitting there
us face to face -
i need something aggressive
love me with passion
give me adoration
play me
kill me
an assassin to tourture my soul
take me beyond
anything and everything i know
just to expose
my soul to something
out of my comfort zone -
laying in bed
shaking
the ambiens kickin’
took it awhile
but it’s got me thinkin’
i could look at you
get me lost with your winking
feels like i’ve been drinking
i can feel your lips, us kissing
if i squint
it’s almost like a hint
standing there, your skin
god, your scent
wish that was you
present, but it’s only cement
take my breath
lost a good friend
see you in death
occasionally in dreams
when it’s you and me
and there’s no fence
between content and regret
when i don’t feel at threat
or confused by your fake silhouette -
i’m gonna break your heart
i knew it from the start
but i say that
we go rounds
lose a few pounds
bounce from town to town
send a few flowers
run like a clown
listen for a sound
but the owl only calls at night
when he’s alone
he picks up the phone
knowing we’re prone -
time to move on
as i listen for the gong
the slow moving distance
it’s coming
but so slow
i know it’s time to go
the show
it’s long overdue
but yet, i listen for the tune
like i love the blue
wear my tap shoes
just in case
i get to dance for you -
the days pass
they come and go
conversations die like the fourth of july
sent a message
as you unpacked your luggage
“do i get to see you today”
a few hours
a few showers, a few distractions
a yes
“should i pack a bag”
“let’s see my mood”
the day goes on
who knows
but i did
i know a no
“no, not tonight. i want a good night’s rest”
always an excuse
always emotional abuse
didn’t know when to stop
only when to continue
as i sat in the igloo
waiting for you
when i should’ve gone
when i should’ve stopped the song -
the fit i’d throw, the flute i played
the song i made
how mad i’d get when you tried to pay
the day goes on
the grave stays strong
pain stays safe
like i should wait
as a trail i’m supposed to take
do i go straight?
‘cause if it’s fate
i don’t mind the wait
even if it means
a decade of insane
i’ll remain
i promise i’ll wait
i say
as i count the days -
it’s just a cord
pull it, turn me off
time to storm
let’s leave the port
fear for short
feel the force
end up, such a lovely morgue
are you bored?
do you mourn?
are you torn?
travel with me?
we’ll go to luxembourg
all before the storm
feel it, it’s lukewarm
are you ready to perform?
what? you’re confused?
i see your firearm
and you’re telling me to disarm?
sorry, i don’t know who you are
anymore
just remember
you swore
and shut the door
i can see the storm
i told you
i was warned -
i’ll pick you up
yet we meet instead
smile as i make my way
“you look nice”
thinking back
what a surprise
how i miss that time
i just smile
the look in your eyes
forget the lies
forget the wise
you, the prize
thank you
wish we weren’t past-due
that i still knew you
but i look at the moon
think back, the class
how i walked you to the car
kissed you at the door
i just wish i drove
but you liked alone
