flying deep, hearing screams
going down, they weep
time to leave
watch, listen
the stars glisten
new souls acquire quite a desire
tasting limitless, feeling emptiness
i rise for the time being
i feel your knees
screaming please
i will, they spill, wobble and crumble
i know no peace
never knew ease
always playing blue, never green
never knew anything other than how to be
yelling, spelling words that can’t be
a bees got my knees
i guess that’s how i came to be
twenty-seven
would’ve loved you til the end
will love you until i can’t
lying here, not sure i can
wine in hand
body submerged
veins blue
mind takes over
love you
red floor
just like before
tight jeans
everything felt right
you and i
nothing between
wish it were green
and eyes were clean
just wish we were eighteen
and love wasn’t mean
walk into fire
you and i
thought we acquired
we walk
you talk
here i reminisce
of all the things and you
that i miss
our kiss
against your jeep
outside my apartment
the fire
your eyes
i died
i would do it a thousand times
now i lie
same space
different place
wondering about your hair
did you fuck someone here?
always on my mind
can never quite find
any peace of mind
signed,
blind
eleventh of april
pondering thoughts
throwing pots
love you baby, but i can’t stay here anymore
the smell, you linger
i shower, long for your fingers
look at the couch, how i laughed
threw off the red
all yours and nothing more
you pour, i adore
you swore
well, here’s the door
time to go
i know, i’ve said it before
but this time-
i’ll see you in the next
until then, here’s the knife
here’s to july, the good bye
love you, sublime
chasin’ whiskey
come on, kiss me
wondering forever
do you miss me?
chasin’ abyss
dark nights, candle lights
water falls, tears know all
hit the wall, i fall
water pours
slamming doors
back to the floor
heart beats no more
the water flows
people show
floating near
dear, the thoughts…
i longed to hear
i’ll be waiting
regardless the weather
the cancer
i promise, forever
here we go, descending
somewhere in colorado
wonder if you’re here
skies blue, snows white
a nice place to die
regardless time, distance
we’re only an instant
fuels burning
feel you
a somber song
for someone i’ll always know
regardless of knew
and all the words i drew
just for you
six months so soon
got your gun, played in fun
always your pun
still hooked, aligned
still under
sit back and ponder
dreaming of things that can’t be
how you need me
in the gray, those calves
how i went mad
and still am
begged for this in nyc
never thought it’d come to be
that i’d lose me
six months under
still can’t figure out this puzzle
as you play with your pistol
and i hold my crystal
