words by dominic riccitello

Oct 25, 2013

when the sun rises

thinking was wrong
you hit the gong
shoulda been me
in your thoughts
in between all those shots
forever
but thinking was wrong
maybe even blinking
or breathing
assuming was unnecessary
but it was pretty extraordinary

how i went hungry
thirsty
lusting for your love
hungry for everything
we once used to be

held on so tight
grasped for what was right
hid what was wrong
and hoped i wouldn’t realize
what i had been doing
hypnotized

all so subliminal
but the sonic sound of you
was all i heard
your voice occupied my mind
my lust
my afflicting affection
contradicting

so hungry
forever
of what used to be
you and i
forever bonnie and clyde
yet reversed for a 21st century love
2.0 kind of lust
inessential to the human touch
was everything
i didn’t have to think much

i’ll be waiting
on the day
that it’ll be appropriate to continue loving you
my soviet
until then, love you forever
my eternal sunshine
see you when the sun rises
Oct 25, 2013

commitment

death like meth
took a breath
to succumb to sudden death
let in and out of trust
only to bust
under the pressure
of the promiscuous rush

expectations turned to dust
are we ever supposed to trust
issues, tissues
damn, i miss you
Oct 25, 2013

meet me in target

how do i win you
or your identical twin
in a parallel universe
you love me
sittin’ on the carousel
watchin’ you, watch me
not like this world
where you dodge me

you’d twirl under the spotlight
i’m glad you didn’t like the limelight
why’d you go bad
or is this all nonsensical
we’re only talking hypothetical

all i want is something ethical
don’t you think that’s acceptable

so how about that twin
can i find them in brooklyn
maybe in a dark alley
over by the trash tin

don’t forget i’m only talking herein
you standing there smoking that cigarette
i kinda dig it
but don’t make me upset
then we’ll be playing russian roulette

cause in a parallel universe
i’m not myself
i’m not submersed
i mean, it is a new world
i’m not sittin’ there curled

i told you i didn’t want to misconstrue
but it was only ever your point of view

so how about it
can we go about it
in another orbit
maybe this time we’ll meet in a target
and you won’t be so heartless
Oct 24, 2013

got away

sand in our eyes
cuts so deep
quite unsure how we left
without vision
that was us
your decision

so close
felt what was really happening
heart beating rapidly
wasn’t grappling
i said don’t go

couldn’t see
but the vision was useless
i knew you were gone
but i was left clueless
the moment i held
so right
you said you’d be back in a week
but you didn’t speak
i felt the goodbye
you were alive
just like in july

only heard your voice
the restraint
my unconditional love
ain’t so quaint
you couldn’t see it
yet it was there
but i guess it was a glare

without eyes
i knew
i just knew
you had no flaws at all
you were flawless
my fondue

no sight needed
blinded by what i thought was to be
fearless in the thought of you
plus me
but that’s an old wise tale
of how we were supposed to be

next time
i won’t let you find a way
away
Oct 24, 2013

synthetic

latex leather sin
you win
the scene was you and me
you played i

monopoly for us
you gained everything
i lost it all
bankrupt heart with nothing to give
like a dart to the chart
you knew all
guess you had a kickstart

i sat so alone
so bare
so cold
so beyond being there

you won it
you won the game
you deserve it all
honey with your latex leather skin

synthetic to the bone
leather bound heart
so superficial you were
à la carte
seperate, black
anxiety attack
Oct 24, 2013

vacationer

subconscious to us
subliminal membranes telling us no
how about you go
they said

i stayed
you vacationed in my heart
in and out
your own leisure

atlanta
you went
i stayed
home tonight

wine in hand
ambien in another
wake up tomorrow
that was a joke
would have been nice
but no piano

golden look of forever
yet just a brass glance
you were an ass
essentially loved
subconsciously hated
subliminally riveting

aura in the distance
that was you
approaching glow
i said you kidding me
but baby you were there
no joke

but the jokes on me
for falling so deep
Oct 24, 2013

from neck to death

lie on top
head to head
eye to eye
mouth on neck
lie in bed

that thing you did
that was respect
made me so red
didn’t know what to expect

sound effect in the silence
had no mileage
i’ll let you lead the way, counselor
pure guidance

hands around my back
you were kinda like crack
giving me an asthma attack
you probably deserve a plaque

the ivory was now black
roses no longer red
lyin in the bed
complying and underlying
crying inside
guess there’s an upside

i found myself
while giving myself
you should come around
to my burial ground

just remember
that it’ll always rhyme with september
and i’ll always see the ember
every september
Oct 23, 2013

sweet sixteen

scary
your blood was sweet cherry
red like the sea
lie back
take it deep
you ain’t dirt cheap
yeah, heard that before
but i was sad to the core
and mad
insanity
and at that time, i didn’t believe in humanity
guess it was easy to deceive and detach
and create this fake vanity
i always had an escape hatch
just in case they lit the match
some sort of brutality told me so
but that would have required some morality
yet it was cold
and i didn’t really uphold
any sort of respect
guess that’s what happens when you hear about perfect
and try to disconnect
now i reflect
but i don’t really regret
all that i did
amid all they forbid
Oct 23, 2013

satan said so

satan says
so satan goes
in this world
of low and behold
nothing nice, nothing real
undefined by how we go
in and out of who we are
who we’re not and how we’re exposed
to be

suppose in the world
where everything goes right
we live and love
right

who said what’s wrong from right
opposite of a communist
finding out from who
and not from personal experience
which lets us become serious
nobody knows
who’s wrong and who’s right

gut says wrong
brain says right
heart says stop
but breaking our hearts along the way
we’re freaks of the night
the path of wrong and right

satan said to go
but i said why so
how so
the purpose of so

tell me i’m wrong
please
why couldn’t you tell me this
all along
why’d you let me prolong
this heartless theme song
Oct 23, 2013

feelings when she died

lying there waiting for freedom
waiting for hope
lying there waiting for excuses
waiting for insecurities

built so high, but down so low
you killed me, but didn’t know
sat for hours, phone beside
even after she died
just a call, nothing more
but words waiting for me
all i wanted, all i asked for
not much when we were dating

to let me know when you don’t know anymore
promised me, but you shut the door
said you would let me know, you promised me
i told you, all i wanted to know
said you would be honest

asked too much, spoke too much
feelings of serenity, i never knew
they never let me feel free
died every night, woke every morning
to cry just a bit more
you never really knew me
just left me tongue tied

never even called to ask
the feelings when she died
you didn’t even care
you just lied

it was barehanded
the strangle to the heart
the struggle to realize
that you didn’t even care
how unfair

the world you had was so more
so bored by what you didn’t know
yet you could
if you tried, but never tried
came for the ride
alongside

i wish you tried
but so lost in this world
with just you and without me
i wish you would have just replied