we lied in bed
you asked me
what’s your one regret
i reflect
proclaim
i don’t have any yet
no cold sweat
no threat
just a cadet
with a life ahead
no time to think back
i smoke my cigarette
blow my smoke
proceed to hold my breath
think “what the heck”
and forget death
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give ‘em hell
take ’em back and through
in and out
consume my abuse
tune in
show no confusion
lick my fusion
taste the movement
have you walked in my shoes
have you been to the moon
my costume
i’ll take it off
show you what’s true
but first i need to know
there’s no hole
nothing cold
truth down to the bone
won’t hit the road
as soon as i kiss your nose
you’ll know
just go with the flow
i’ll let off control
looking for home
no remote
leaving me alone
just to explode
like i was owed -
it’s not going to work
feels like i’m at cirque
not really looking to rework
or a long smirk in the distance
anything twisted, anything “different”
you’re just looking for a friend
i’m looking for more, seemingly bored
i’ll let you go before you snore
i’ll walk you to the door
hope you find what you’re looking for -
i wasn’t being passive
you were just being an asshole
throwing me back and to
take two
should’ve seen you
wasn’t trying to lean on you
but you sat there
phone in hand
telling me i can’t be a rock
but you were just being a cock
a stupid fucking jock
i didn’t ask for anything
all i did was stand there, breathing
you throwing me every different fucking feeling
it was rude, selfish, inconsiderate
acting like you’re ignorant, illiterate
but you’re intelligent
occasionally arrogant, but i’ll give you that
forgive you for being a brat
all i wanted was that
to attach, instead of playing games
like a fucking cat and a rat
my bad, i didn’t realize i dated someone without class
treating me like a piece of trash
were we in combat or are you seriously just an ass? -
grabbing your ass
standin’ in the parking lot
going down
does this say a lot
food for thought
bend your mind
tell you you’re mine
dime a dozen
leave you frozen
take the roses
another word for my devotion
feel the passion
let’s be interwoven
no need for social
i’ll show you you’re chosen
feed you oceans
take you through motions
these words, softly spoken
your eyes, so much emotion
who knew words could be so provoking
cigarettes, the smoking
leave you choking
on words you don’t understand
show you eyes are the end
love at first glance
touch at first hand
this romance, the touch, the feel
the emotion, the endless banter
the cancer…
so many things unanswered -
ride alone
die alone
fly alone
i’ll live this damn life alone
just to know
what it feels like
to find myself
in myself
my own self -
observant to the motion
analytical to the notion
the words so softly spoken
the mood full of passion
the eyes holding sadness
an empty canvas
drink in hand, looking the saddest
like the only one on the planet
black as callous as ever
madness, unintentional rebellion
the yelling
the seldom welcome
the depression
self-rejection so hard
leaving you scarred
take my arm
i’ll show you no harm
that you’re a star
but first
you must leave the bar
set down your drink
and believe
it’s okay to dream
to sleep
to show grief
and breathe -
mid-week
you got sick
wanted to bring you a gift
didn’t need to lie down, watch a flick
just drop off some meds, some food
a few gifts
i could’ve stayed
made you dinner
or left just like winter
but i worried
head stayed buried
everything was blurry
sometimes i still worry
no fury
there were things you kept hidden
i respected
but you really disconnected
and i’m not sure why
did you think i couldn’t handle it?
would bolt from it?
my face would’ve stayed unaffected
i put piece to piece
i kind of already suspected
but i could’ve been wrong all along
but i think that says more
that i wouldn’t shut the door
deplore or explore the shore
i knew what i wanted
i know that’s rare
haunting
maybe one day you’ll read this
and understand
i was rather something -
you’re older
but i’ve used those tricks
i started at six
i’ve read the script
ignorance is bliss
kissed the lips
took quick trips
used whips
seen an eclipse
left the ship
jumped the steps
wished a wish
lived an abyss
loved a phillips
grabbed the hips
i’ve done this
and i still miss itforget it
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the mood of your song
sound of the gong
the vibrations
soft hitting strong
how i sung the song
i feel so gone
so long, all alone
you like the throne
have me stoned
what a hoax
should’ve known
at first note
