no longer check on you
no longer have you
no longer a wreck
took the check
laid out on the sundeck
somewhere in quebec
thinkin’ what the heck
it all started with that peck
took a long trek
from neck to death
found my breath
makin’ meth
no longer depend or extend
here i go, transcend
goodbye, friend
this is the end
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i’ve been bad
i’ve been good
i’ve done all the things you wish you couldtook the boat
scoured the shore
took it all and begged for moreswept the floor
screamed, i know there’s more
swung the door
the labyrinth, this was all i asked fordim lights
i can feel your fire
it burns inside
people would kill to diewalk the streets
the shadows creep
i pass the spot where our hands used to meetyou pass
your hands, cold like glass
drop the bomb, tear gaslook towards the ground
two rats
that was us
before the clash -
thought of you a few
it’s my birthday too
why can’t you go?
the show’s overfall back, lie in snow
so numb, can’t feel the cold
playing with fool’s gold
remember my soul was soldfive months
but you still seem to show every hour
taste still sour
glad i never sent those flowerssad that i jumped towers
the power, it was ours
could’ve had mars
watched the stars, the showersour cars
your musical chairs
my fears
those hours you volunteered
how you said you liked my face
what are you hiding under that beard?moving on’s hard
lie in the yard as i wait for a shooting star
can i have one more?
no response, left scarredlooking somewhere else
help me, let me find myself
i’m just jealous
how you were obsessed with yourself
while i sat and expressed myselfi don’t even regret
the love was that intense
leaving me depressed
a magnitude of defensemy two cents, my sixth sense
these events were what they were
all that they were
an entrepreneur needs to come and go
show me the world and leave me curled
so i understand what it’s like to be disturbed
when i need to help someone find the curealways and forever yours
as i shut the door -
i lie abstract
i don’t mind
yet i stay entwined
thinking twice, i lie reclinedhow much do i love you?
would i change the sky for you?
a deeper shade of blue?show you the hue
pick out a color
i’ll paint it all for youbut that’s too much
no one likes to rush
a rush, yes
but i’m a lushdo you mind?
could you pass the brush?
your favorite color?i’ll paint it dark blue
a deep sadness
all for you
you could never imagine
the way i looked at youlook up
it’s blue
all for you -
why yes
i’m good with knives
if you must ask
go on, pass my flaska sip for your soul
a sip, you ask to know it all
hand you my mask
go on, ask
go on, i’m relaxedback in nebraska, you ask?
the body
ah yes, half in alaska
some scattered in atlanta
all the way to indianasanta?
i’m the ghoul of the night
i strike once, never twicei like your hair
sit down
why are you standing there?
pull up a chairdo you have dental care?
curious
do you use skin care?
why so serious?sit there
i know, i’m notorious
living with experience
stop shaking
i’m an aquarius and you?beautiful
are you nervous?
lip service
honey, i won’t resurfacethe blood, glisten
you look delicious
why are you praying?
you’re religious?
better ask for forgivenessloosen up, i hate your stiffness
don’t look around
there’s not a witnessi laugh, you think i’m vicious
so cute
it’s not an illness
come here, give me kisses
i said come here
don’t you listen?i’ve got some unfinished business
don’t you know the date?
it’s almost christmas -
a shadow in black
laughs, smiles, faces galore
the drawer swung open
could have sworn
but all i could remember was war
the floor, so beautiful, so desired and torn
yours, how you knew
how you polished a shoe
but it wasn’t, thank god
because what would i do
if it was you
if i saw you -
hangin’ over the fridge
you ask what that is
pull out the wine
“i’m not sure how good this is”
your smile
i would walk a thousand miles
you don’t understand
all the things i’d do
how grand
but i need to let you go
i need to hang up the phone
it’s time, i say
as i look you in the eye
all from behind
your blinds
that this is goodbye -
what a wednesday
i’m all yours
over a messageyour essence
filled a room
the evanescence
killed my moodbeginning to end
my mourning will never end
i find you in the slightest
worry about you
even when i have arthritislove doesn’t come and go
it stays forever
until death us do partthat’s the art
even at the bar
i think of the start
wonder about your heart
where you are
did you embark
somewhere far?i’ve said it before
it was hard when you shut the door
never know if you were just looking to score
subconsciously looking for someone to care formy gut tells me otherwise
that you could have been a good guyi just wish you knew
what i had gone throughbut i’ve seen the light
i know it’s there
i still look for someone with your hair
i shouldn’t
i promised myself i wouldn’tbut who am i kidding
my love for you
it’s chilling -
i take a sip
forty past six
somewhere in the world
someone’s holding your hips
kissing your face
this valentines daylook down
my whiskey
wonder if you miss me
or think of me
as you lift your drinkbut this i say
i love you all the way
a different day
yet i can’t seem to stray
away from something so vague
it’s so strangehappy valentines day
from me, my cup
this bottle
in the back of this old brothel -
roses are red
my soul is black
happy valentines day
to you and your bottle of jack
