I loved you with different words than you knew and that seemed to scare you.
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I went into the new year loving myself in different ways, in a different possibility. It was then that I understood things I hadn’t. It was then that I understood people I hadn’t. We work in ways where sometimes we don’t align because our intersections lead us elsewhere. We find ourselves in rapids which lead to lightning, in beds that leave us homesick. We lust after the impetuous, in hopelessness, and sometimes in the reactive.
We like things and people who are bad for us and that’s fine. It’s fine because it’s life. It happens. They exist. We exist. We all exist together in this world where nothing seems to make sense. Where everything is nothing but imaginary because it’s what we imagine it to be. Reality exists and it’s there, but life is what you make it. Your actions ask for it. How you exist is how you exist.
We take every new year and give it a theme because we’re scared of how it could be. You change in the moment, not by years. You be to become and becoming is something which frightens people. Lead by example instead of letting the example lead you. Take this new year and find yourself in people who question it because questioning is how you gain from it. -
i slip on my tongue
words you say
things we’ve done
fists make rounds
saliva on the ground
i wade in a fever of a sea of grief
two upon a couch with shades of disbelief
to tango with legs twist or kiss the death i’ll soon to miss
i hurdle to your please
emotional abuse became of thee
you flee at the touch of rapids
i tango with my hands
they say it hurts to be, but i said it hurts to become
we make our waves
how i slept for days in a daze where no one came
you slip on cracks
i slipped on my tongue
gave two lungs for a blood bath i soon regret
i used to use commas instead of periods
semicolons instead of deleted sentences
how i brought the knife to my neck
the way you questioned it
two became one
you became of none
killed things i believed in
i left you in the rapids
so i could breathe againknives and necks
words by dominic riccitello -
Mountains in the distance remind me of you.
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If I had amnesia, I know I would fall in love with you all over again.
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sensations caress
the tips of our tongues
bodies become
i sway your hips
biting your lips
kissing your being
taking you there
transcending ourselves
with the touch of a dream
i held you there
took you near
held on with fear
for that if i lost
i could never find
if god exists
if satan cries
i said i love you
you questioned itafter we lost it all
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Treasure your time,
don’t test it. -
walking the night
surrender foot steps to the snow
not a being in sight, but i feel your presence
ghosts of shadows
standing beside a lonely reflection
the silk of your hair
runs through my mind
taking your body
consuming your might
he walks with conviction
our anniversary nears the corner
how i held you through
with death in the morning
as i lie in bed
words you said
gripping his hands, i reminisce
the fog slips through
sensations bruise
moods turn to cold hard plastic
horror builds and knees caress
the chest of your creed
how greed becomes with money
you can’t be without becoming
a way can’t find itself without moving
an ocean can’t feel unless it’s flowingflowing
words by dominic riccitello -
When you know, you know and it flows in your mind like waves. Coming forward as it pulls with the tide. It brings anxiety, terror, and it’s beyond anything plausible.
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Silence is only awkward if one cannot feel a connection with the other.