he twirled
under the sky
with lights in his eyes
love in the night
and i sat
bedazzled with fear
with slight crazy despair
wondering if this was right
if time could fly
if we could float
if things always fell
and i soon stumbled
tumbled through hell
and vacationed in parts
i would soon call home
there were lights
there was love
there were things
you’d only dream of
and i tipped my cigarette
wondering if someday we’d find it
if someday i’d die for him
but we weren’t
we never truly were
it was never truly us
he was just him
dazzled in a costume
which would soon disappear
and create my deepest fear
just him
just i
going rounds
under a darken mistletoe
stubbing our toes
leaving it all
while we fell
to the deepest part of hell