a desire
which couldn’t
nails like bullets
ripping your skin
making you feel
this, that
everything
words by dominic riccitello
a desire
which couldn’t
nails like bullets
ripping your skin
making you feel
this, that
everything
I believe we were right for each other, but not in that moment, which perhaps hindered any possibility of a future.
He said he was going to fix everything and I believed him. But I believed him before and again some. And I guess I got lost in the resentment of disbelief.
I loved you, I did. I believe I even sold myself a bit: on your love, my lust, your hair and just the way we stood there. How the air smelled of you, the way your shirt was cursed with blues. The way we danced by the ocean in front your mini-garden. The white fence, your loveliness and the heavenly kisses. It’ll always be the sheets, lying beside, holding your arm and kissing your hair in a loving stride.
we were just
looking for what could
instead of what was
what should be
instead of how it was
He said he liked my rhythm. I said I liked his heartbeat, and it was within that moment I knew our corners would never meet.
In order for a relationship to work, you need to learn from each other. Grow and experience. One can’t be the leader and the other the follower. You learn and grow and you do this together, with each other. This creates love, loyalty and growth.
my lungs
upon the floor
your shoes
upon my heart
my fingers
caressing your soul
the feeling you’ll never know
You don’t get over it. You move past it. You move through it. You lose yourself to find it, and when found, it’s yours and no longer theirs.