my apologies

there was once a prince whose dishes ran with kisses
but seconds were fine, my seconds were dust anyway
i lie, laugh, rumble with thoughts that lead to him
the skies a dim grey, i’m fine — i know life goes on and eventually the switch will flip

i’ll whip the chain and he’ll be mine some day
but life that way, where you need someone to surrender under spell
i’ll only dwell and the imaginary cell will reappear
we’ll go back and i’ll remember your hair, every follicle
the hallways and random closed entryways

i’ll dance for days and enter the trance the same way
i can’t live this way, i can only hold the corridors for so long
my soul becomes lost and i sit past gone with a face of daze
and my life suddenly becomes ways of you and days where i can’t stop thinking of how, where, why

i die and inside it’s high tide — i can’t hide, i can’t free, i can’t be me
the only thing i know is i can’t be with and i don’t want to miss
you need to leave because in the eve it’s you and i know it’ll always be
i roll up my sleeves, lift off my knees — i know they’ll never exceed

but please, at least for me — go on and leave, surrender your key
i’ll always miss, i’ll always love but under grey and gloomy days
you’ll be on my mind, my eyes and my lingering cries
how your fingers felt, the way we dealt and how i held
i’m sorry and i’m not sure why i’m apologizing

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