thank you – basically sanity. i write to see situations in different aspects.
June 2014
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Read more: destiny
sip my whiskey—
out of my mind, leave a messagei know these things happen
but your presence, i have a confession
i never asked and i bet with sevens
i think back to days at eleven
a kiss and bliss, the bits — the memories
i’ve lived plenty and i can tell you life is scary
but regardless, every memory
every thought and accessory
these things burn like gasoline in your veins
and kill like knives to the brain
i know life is insane, but feeling this way
i blame myself and not you and under the blue
i always knew i’d never kill you, that it would be me all along
and that we probably never belonged
but all the consistencies and coincidences were built as if this were destiny
so if you ask me, moments like this were clearly transparent
and chance never played the game – everything was preordained -
Read more: three lines for a soul
every relationship comes with a flame
but wick lengths vary
and sudden showers can dwindle the flicker -
Read more: in the sunset tower
clock strikes nine
thoughts set in
bad and go, this and to
lights go dim
looking up, tall and grim
stroke your brain
your phantom limb couldn’t sustain
cut your vain
your champagne, your limelight name
all rather handsome
but i’ve already been held for ransom
and i can’t fathom a life without passion
come back from your mansion when the absence kills
and you can answer my question, “have you finally found it?” -
Read more: choked
his eyes spoke
the way he looked, the way he said it’s alright
i’m ready to die
thoughts are heavy, yet he was readytangled hair and twenty
his hands were steady, he never knew scared
feet on chair — he was prepared
in a moment so small his reflection told all
not a single tearone foot, a tingle, balanced on a toe
a smile, lets go
begins to choke
but before he had the chance to say, “this is how life goes” -
Read more: lunch with my ex
i’m free like the birds and the wind and the rocks in my whiskey
sat there, frolicked in our memories
you never needed me, unpleasing but our conversation brought easing
asked you everything, my mind – all the linessurgery, the cancer all the thoughts i perceived
i believed plenty, squeezed tightly
always knew the end would bring lightning
that the fires would consume meunder the maple tree, always thought
always fought with demons that resembled you
the blue, the dark, colors of the eve
wipe my tears with my sleeve
ask myself why you never needed mebut time flies and i shouldn’t cry in my prime
especially about things that aren’t mine
i flip my dime, always a fucking why
the war in my mind, the thoughts confinedbut we sit down for lunch, talk about moments
that maybe we were supposed to meet and in the future, once again
“in the future when the idea of relationship sounds pleasing”
we agreed, then maybe you’ll need me
but maybe i won’t need you
i’ll look at the blue, laugh and agree
i said i would’ve loved you as an amputee
but life at sea, i can’t wait for you to need mehow i mentioned the cemetery – dark crystal
you smile, “that’s right, we never saw that”
but i hold my bat like you held your baton
how i laid at dawn and all those times i sat past goneyou tell me about your recent ex
asked if it was just me?
tell me it wasn’t and apologize profusely
i know you feel awful, but you only have half the knowledgebroken promises and broken wine glasses
again about moments, how i sat frozen
you said, “i’m here” and i just sat and said, “i know”
but i miss looking at you so let me take this
“you know how i always loved to sit and watch you”your scent, your smell still lingers hours later
now i’m in the amphitheater telling you about the water
how days got hotter and hotter and how there was never snow
a dollar for every time i smiled and said, “i know”yet words can’t come and now everything’s a hum
but he tells me i’m with my emotions and i know he’s not
that i was caught and at the time life was shot
i agree, i can see – i understandbut at the end, the car we stand
i hand him a few dvds, a smile in return
i look up, say a few words and set my bat
“–but more importantly, you taught me i can love someone else a whole lot more than i love myself, so i wanted to thank you for that”and as he drives away, i think back and agree
i would have loved him as an amputee -
Read more: content
walking the night
no end in sight
got my highs, my lows and my fright
my eyes set on youi rhyme with time, i cry — i do
still think of you
used to reminisce from my window
us down bronsondinner for two, a movie under the dark blue
too bruised, needed a move
you have no clue
you were too often, everywhere and all of ityou were with as i grooved within us
the grace was just you
those eyes, your selfish ways
but my words, you knew mefuture to paris, think of venice
remember you, smile and laugh
i’ll always love you and i’m fine with it -
Read more: in the pool
cotton candy skies
pride on my sleeve
i ride tonight
this life is for me and i don’t want you to see
i’m far from free, far from metied to a pool
drowning for you
time soothes, the past is cruel
think of you, always that i see youin bed, you’re in my head
we went rounds, i’m still falling down
you’re still around town
i even feel you now
