i knew about the cancer
although you wouldn’t give an answer
maybe you thought it would call for disaster
that it would matter
that i was an actor
it’s just another chapter
here and after
i would stay with you forever
into the night of terror
no error
i’d never look back and think
are we supposed to be together
no matter the weather
i’ll treasure forever
you
my baby blue
December 2013
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Read more: forever and ever
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Read more: sadness behind money
walking in the rain
think you’re such a great dane
so powerful
yet so tame
such a shame
since you’re living for the fame
all in this game
watching your flame
what’s your pen name, you ask?
i can’t tell you, i proclaim
you wouldn’t understand
it’s not the same as when we began
not everything’s grand
this dance
no, i’m not your fan
i yelled, told you to take a chance
held my stance
told you to fucking relax
i won’t sign your contract
i don’t want your cash
stop, you’re looking sad
this is romance
take a lap, come back
and show some class -
Read more: what’s your one regret
we lied in bed
you asked me
what’s your one regret
i reflect
proclaim
i don’t have any yet
no cold sweat
no threat
just a cadet
with a life ahead
no time to think back
i smoke my cigarette
blow my smoke
proceed to hold my breath
think “what the heck”
and forget death -
Read more: going to hell
give ‘em hell
take ’em back and through
in and out
consume my abuse
tune in
show no confusion
lick my fusion
taste the movement
have you walked in my shoes
have you been to the moon
my costume
i’ll take it off
show you what’s true
but first i need to know
there’s no hole
nothing cold
truth down to the bone
won’t hit the road
as soon as i kiss your nose
you’ll know
just go with the flow
i’ll let off control
looking for home
no remote
leaving me alone
just to explode
like i was owed -
Read more: goodbye, take two
it’s not going to work
feels like i’m at cirque
not really looking to rework
or a long smirk in the distance
anything twisted, anything “different”
you’re just looking for a friend
i’m looking for more, seemingly bored
i’ll let you go before you snore
i’ll walk you to the door
hope you find what you’re looking for -
Read more : in
i wasn’t being passive
you were just being an asshole
throwing me back and to
take two
should’ve seen you
wasn’t trying to lean on you
but you sat there
phone in hand
telling me i can’t be a rock
but you were just being a cock
a stupid fucking jock
i didn’t ask for anything
all i did was stand there, breathing
you throwing me every different fucking feeling
it was rude, selfish, inconsiderate
acting like you’re ignorant, illiterate
but you’re intelligent
occasionally arrogant, but i’ll give you that
forgive you for being a brat
all i wanted was that
to attach, instead of playing games
like a fucking cat and a rat
my bad, i didn’t realize i dated someone without class
treating me like a piece of trash
were we in combat or are you seriously just an ass? -
Read more: parking lot love
grabbing your ass
standin’ in the parking lot
going down
does this say a lot
food for thought
bend your mind
tell you you’re mine
dime a dozen
leave you frozen
take the roses
another word for my devotion
feel the passion
let’s be interwoven
no need for social
i’ll show you you’re chosen
feed you oceans
take you through motions
these words, softly spoken
your eyes, so much emotion
who knew words could be so provoking
cigarettes, the smoking
leave you choking
on words you don’t understand
show you eyes are the end
love at first glance
touch at first hand
this romance, the touch, the feel
the emotion, the endless banter
the cancer…
so many things unanswered -
Read more: riding
ride alone
die alone
fly alone
i’ll live this damn life alone
just to know
what it feels like
to find myself
in myself
my own self -
Read more: take my arm
observant to the motion
analytical to the notion
the words so softly spoken
the mood full of passion
the eyes holding sadness
an empty canvas
drink in hand, looking the saddest
like the only one on the planet
black as callous as ever
madness, unintentional rebellion
the yelling
the seldom welcome
the depression
self-rejection so hard
leaving you scarred
take my arm
i’ll show you no harm
that you’re a star
but first
you must leave the bar
set down your drink
and believe
it’s okay to dream
to sleep
to show grief
and breathe
