why am i living for you
i thought and said
i read the lips
upon the faces of many
wondered why thoughts
were ever so heavy
as we drove to the city
sat beside in your chevy
looking heavenly
i never thought this could get so messy
deadly or even petty
i just saw confetti
and ignored the machete
December 2013
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Read more: chevy to the city
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Read more: lingering in my mind
we saw each other
you didn’t know it was me
i ran so free
it couldn’t be
then i saw you
i stood so still
gasped
felt the crash
the feeling
lingering behind
the way we’re designed
i could go blind
and i’d still be able to find
we will always align
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Read more: a way with words
don’t call me that
you said with pain
as if i hit a vain
you were slain
i was just joking
thought it was okay
eleven years
it was like foreplay
rather cliche
the way of words
another song for the birds
as i hit that nerve
your face so strongly occurred -
Read more: as i laid in hospice
what you did wasn’t right
you just kept quiet
hooking up left and right
as i tried to call
as i took the fall
lying in hospice
as you held no promise
“your clients”
didn’t tell me what was on your mind
was this a show
was i supposed to know? -
Read more: outside the school
begged for five minutes
please
i hate to beg
i feel annoying
please
this stings like bees
i drop to my knees
so sudden ease
the breeze is such a tease
the squeeze
it knew
it seized
it was freed
i’m so sorry
i couldn’t understand
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Read more: professional
like a pro
gave me a show
you sure knew what you were doing
made it look like i didn’t know
took me home
you made it snow
took me into the unknown
made it whole
heard a moan
felt your soul
you sure know how to hit the note
how to blow
slap you on the nose
suppose i would have interrupted
bid adieu
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Read more: posthumous
standing on the corner of sunset
i saw it in your eyes, i saw the intensity
it was nice, but i stood in my armor, didn’t want horror
your eyes, they looked warmer, could tell you were a charmer
maybe i should flip a quater and cross the border
remind me of a new yorker
but hopefully you’re not a martyr or capable of murder
no longer in a corner trying to barter
i wonder if there’s something underlying
something i shouldn’t be buying
something i’m just not finding
something you’re hiding
should i be riding
should i be driving
wait, i think i’m shining
am i smiling
i forgot what this felt like, it’s blinding
i guess i’m surviving
no longer crying or dying
i guess i might be realizing
that there’s something other than you that might be satisfying
i think i found something and it’s electrifying -
Read more: christmas present
got what i needed
finally freed
my closure
regained composure
from long overexposure
this wild rollercoaster
i would trade it for nothing
redo it over and over
think of you as my four leaf clover
who taught me a lot
who i’d never give a second thought
just hiding in my blind spot
and hiding when i was shot
but sometimes things aren’t meant to be
and sometimes things are all they’re supposed to be -
Read more: pour me another
every time you get that ding
that bing
that email
it’ll remind you of me
i’ll be in your mind
telling you how we aligned
you’ll remember how i was kind
how i was always just trying to get by
how i left nothing confined
when i broke that glass of wine
you would ask what i was laughing at
how i would say nothing
you just made me shine
felt like i was nine
how i would lose track of time
how i tried to make everything fine
how i just wanted you to be mineyes, i’d like another glass
red wine -
Read more: something’s not right
talk soon
but that was a few ago
sat in queue for high noon
in the blue
should’ve taken that cruise
instead of looking like a fool
soon i’ll move
turn on the news
see you died
it was true
you couldn’t remove the costume
let me in
and tell me the truth
