were you intimidated by all the things i had
i feel like i’ve been reincarnated
and i’m just dated
i feel like i’ve waited
but i guess it’s a little weighted
i have this presence of
i’ve been here before
it’s an essence
and all these faces
there’s no difference
i don’t feel like a legend
i just feel like i’ve been to heaven
and back
and maybe my name was devon
and then evan
maybe kevin
and i worked at 7-11
maybe i lived through the recession
the great depression
this confession
is just an expression
a message
a question
that shouldn’t be brought up
over breakfast
because i could care less
about where i’ve been
and where i’m going
because i’m here now
i’m just floating
and flowing
growing
do you know me
i’m only lonely
because i’ve been here
before
and it’s getting old
living in a trapdoor
November 2013
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Read more: dreaming with monroe
i see you looking
i see you wanting
but you ain’t touching
this is only for show
it’s all that i have
it’s all i know
sitting on the balcony of the chateau
i look below
is this how monroe felt
in the day
and in the night
no peace, all a crime
you all want a piece
and i say take a seat
all i want is something discrete
where i don’t need to compete
no conciet
knock on my door
say trick or treat
i just want something sweet
not another trip down
wall street
sit in our pajamas
feeling complete
not another trip down
main street
so you can feel
all the conciet
give me something real
please -
Read more: postcard from france
here i sit
a postcard in front
i admit“it’s me
i’m sitting in a coffee shop
in the south of france
i think about you here and there
and it’s just nice
to know someone
somewhere in the world
misses you
so i’m just writing to let you know
that i miss you”in the daily i thought i was fucking crazy
but essentially
it was naturally hazy
and i had a sense of bravery
to let you know
how much i missed you
amidst
all that went wrong
is that classy?i signed it with
“i hope you’re happy” -
Read more: when you’re a wild child
“you’re turning into a wild child”
“that’s what happens when someone breaks your heart”i’ve heard it all too many times
that’s what happens when you’re in your twenties
and you’re feeling empty
and there’s no one in this century
that understands it
and you feel like you’re in a penitentiarybut i mean, it’s the turn of the century
and i wanna make a recovery
have the memories
and the sensory
of all that it was
and all it caused
it’s like a little documentary
and the trajectory was set
and i knew the directory
this was elementary
i’ll treat that memory
like it was an accessory
and i’ll figure it out
‘cause hell
i knew this all too well -
Read more: a cliche for b.
looked me in the eyes
said i drove you crazy
i lie on top
my hands in your hair
lips on your lips
i just look in your eyes
and kiss your forehead
down to your nose
and wonder
all there is to wonder
and it was great
put your hand
feel my heart rate
this is what it felt like
to create
to find your soul matestood at the mirror
i need to lose weight
i walked over to you
grabbed on to you
and told you i liked you
just the way you were
it was cliche
but i meant it
i really meant it
and i wonder
if you resented it -
Read more: played without reason
i’m so mad
i’m so furious
i just miss you
just a little curious
and i didn’t even do
anything wrong
and i just think about
you all day long
and how i don’t belong
in your life
and it fucks me up
to think about you this much
i just scream and shout
in my head
all day long
i go in and out
i guess i’ll start to doubt
anyone that comes
around
from here on out -
Read more: let me leave
haven’t changed the sheets
i lie
and think of you
and me
and how we used to be
it’s getting old
my thoughts of you
they drive me crazy
they make me lazy
i don’t want to move
i just need to prove
i don’t need you
let me proceed
i just lie and read
but then i stop
and i get lost
and i’m like
damn
i miss you
and your lips
and how i’d squeeze your hips
fell for your tricks
but i don’t even care
and maybe that’s what’s sad
i just feel crazy
on the daily
i’d just like to move on
already -
Read more: b. w. p.
i liked the way you
walked
talked
the confidence
your energy
and how you treated me
when i thought
things were gonna bei looked and saw no flaws
cause you were perfect
but it was just a sad movie
why does this always happen to me
i felt lucky for once
thought i found my forever friend
but i guess
things are always
destined to
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Read more: typical
beautiful
to me, that wasn’t so crucial
i guess that’s rather unusual
in this day and age
everyone wants to be beautiful
but what’s beautiful
to everyone but me
isn’t so beautiful
it’s so brutal
how usual
