take me back
when it was easy
when it was cheesy
cliche
but i guess that’s so far away
and you can’t win me back in a day
but you probably could
‘cause i’m a fool
and you’re a ghoul
and i’m used to it
abused because of it
misused while you’re amused
do you feel moved
or essentially smooth
watching me speak the truth
going damn
i’m a heart breaker
but no, you’re just danger
a good debater
player
and i’m just cigarette paper
since you lit me up
and smoked me for what i was
and then joked
about how much i hoped
and choked
so i laid around and coped
after i’d been roped
and doped
next time i won’t provoke
or hope anyone will approach
’cause i don’t wanna feel broke
be another practical joke
lie in posion oak
won’t breathe the smoke
so i won’t choke
i’ll just wear my cloak
hide and revoke
November 2013
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Read more: let’s fuck
fuck me
i don’t give it up that easily
said ever so facetiously
have some decency
you ain’t getting this so hastefully
i need there to be electricity
i need you to lie there obediently
sworn to secrecy
because this’ll all be done illegally
and honey
you’ll be coming back seasonally
because this ain’t no travesty
and i don’t wanna leave you in agony
after i take you to another galaxy
and leave you randomly
all this sensuality
i want you to have the mentality
know the formality
that i don’t have morality
and the reality
is that i suffer from insanity
and this fantasy
is going to leave
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Read more: winter dinner
i become proud of myself
when i look at the clock
five minutes pass
and i come to the realization
that i haven’t thought about you
for five whole minutes
but then it all comes back
and i’m off the beaten track
once again
i become defeated
and all i want is freedom
yet i become pieces
and weaken
and fall short of entrance
to the garden of eden
and i see the demon
in the distance
and it deepens
this winter season
at every dinner
i’ll leave out a plate
it’ll be quaint
and i’ll sit with restraint
there won’t be a complaint
i won’t faint
‘cause i know you’re not a saint
and you’ll no longer taint
and i’ll become stronger
and soon
i won’t think about you
or set a plate for you
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Read more: malibu
a beautiful mind
how intuitive that is
ain’t so usual over here in malibu
lyin’ by the ocean
waiting for a motion
asked you a question
but all i get is aggression
i look at you
and i see the great depression
i always talk about how sad you are
it’s usually always business
but i’ve seen happiness
and i’ve witnessed nastiness
i wish i could say i’ve seen venus
and i want to say i’ve formed a genius
but i can’t
and i could rant
about how much i hate you
but i love you so much more
and i can’t seem to find the door
when i adore
and i look at the shore
and wonder
when i won’t feel like this
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Read more: i want attention
love me
want me
give me the attention i deserve
send me to detention
question me
take me to another dimension
living in the fifth dimension
i said take me to heaven
lose the tension
no apprehension
make me your obsession
give me affection
i need this connection
and bring me all the protection
‘cause when i’m done
you won’t breathe for seconds
and i’ll lengthen this session
give you an education
and you’ll need redemption
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Read more: christmas wish
little boy
i told you
i’m just a ghost
here to tell you
all about the innocence
the infamous
the frivilous
the impetuous
wickedness
and give you a sense
of diligenceit’s a down dirty road
here on out
regardless the zip code
i need you to find a serious mode
‘cause it’s about to get mysterious
and you’ll become delirious
of who you are
and who you might become
it’ll be genius
but jesus won’t help you
and sometimes it’ll be hideous
you’ll become devious
and cynical
and clearly fearlessbut it takes a moment to find your position
and you’ll wish every christmas
that you figure it out
and it might take your children’s children
but eventually
you’ll figure it out
and the picture will become bigger
and you’ll become the fisher
no longer needing
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Read more: sleeping with the past
when i sleep my mind remains open, you stay and frolic
started to become an alcoholic, ever so melancholic
this is all symbolic and there is no logic, it lies behind
the feeling was cosmic and now it’s toxic
like i’m being held hostage and the topic is chronic
every day i feel more lethargic, lost somewhere in the arctic
i look in the mirror and yell, “you’re fucking garbage”
i wish i could see clearer but it rains of terror
am i lost in the reign of terror and this is forever
i look, i try to endeavor and throw out effort
i throw on my leather and venture, looking back
i see no pressure, here i go… another adventure
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Read more: purple heart romance
categorized this as work
till i realized all that it was
maybe i subconciously hindered
all it could be
i just wish i understood
how precious it was
the moment it started
and that this wasn’t for the fainthearted
until you parted
leaving me unable to restart
like a work of art
i fell apart
you deserve a purple heart
for killing and taking
everything i had
now i’m breaking
shaking
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Read more: 2013
hickey on my neck
what a trek
i’ve taken this year
hand me a beer
i’ll tell you all about it
but you’ll probably doubt itit all started in january
a shooting
took a part of the family
but things happen rapidly
people lose their sanity
and we live in agony
and it gives everything a new realitythen we hop down a month or two
and you hear about cancer
and you just want an answer
but it takes them out faster
and the doctor said
sorry, there’s no answerand you fall in love
while it all goes on
and you lose focus
and your closest
starts to lose motion
and you feel brokenthe new love
makes you forget all the bad
but it only worsens
when it starts to get rough
and you can’t get enough
and everything starts to become real
and you lose control of the steering wheelthe cancer takes over
and you lose a dancer
all to lung canceryour loves somewhere
and doesn’t even care
and all you wanted was a hug
but they swept you under the rug
unplugged
and you need a drug
to sleep
and find peacebecause that’s what happens
when your heart breaks
over and over
and you lose all composurei can’t seem to get off this roller coaster
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lying in the sand
forgetting what reality is
the ocean takes
but i give
too much devotion
i live in slow motion
showing little emotion
occasionally, i stop and think
did i take some potion
why am i always frozen
and so broken
in this moment
feeling stolen
i sit up and look
the pacific ocean
stop and think
why have i lived in such
open implosion
always the coldest notion
i’m losing focus
no longer open
golden
forever living
unspoken
