its been a month, guess we lost touch
the tenth, your birthday
i found a way to preoccupy my time
didn’t really wanna modify, but i knew how i would’ve spent
you, as a creature, couldn’t personify how i felt
the way i dealt, maybe wasn’t the most appropriate
but honey, i ain’t a soviet, i couldn’t get you to negotiate
all i could get you to do was disassociate
sorry, i’m running late
i have a date
November 2013
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Read more: october 10
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Read more: your mouth
your mouth tastes like a few ago
i don’t know, i let go
it was so-so, no longer in escrow
although i’ll always feel for them, so
let go of control only to know the unknown
i sit alone, somewhere in idaho, maybe buffalo… or mexico
but your mouth tastes like something i used to know
i don’t know, i want something new
not snow, not another show
a new hello -
Read more: lost but never found
walking down a lonely road, i look back
just because i’m lost doesn’t mean i want you to find me
yelling to me, you tell me there’s no cost
but the feeling, this is embossed
the pressure, it’s not soft
you trickle your feather and i wonder whether
you ever find something better
looking back, telling me to remember
the treasure, it’s as rare as a transgender
trying to find their way like it’s clear weather
i take off my sweater, i walk further
write you a letter, tell you i’m no longer bitter
but things never seem to get better
i miss you and that’s no error
days will pass and maybe
i’ll think of you lesser and lesser -
Read more: heart on the altar
don’t wanna fuck, just testing the waters
don’t want to slaughter, your heart on the altar
it’s an honor, but i’m not a robber
let’s do this proper because i’m unsure
i don’t want you to endure something obscure
i want to assure, want you to be secure
i’ve been there, it was a wild detour
some entrepreneur, i’m gonna hand you a brochure
so you know what i’m about, so you don’t doubt
there’s no drought and i never back out
i just don’t want to burn out in a small amount
so are you down for the count
i hope to keep you around
at least for a round -
Read more: beauty
beauty defined as something else
most were blind but it was all in the mind
you filled my wants and needs
and that was beauty, truly
people’s ideas are gloomy
they hold cruelty and superficiality
everybody wants a movie
they look beyond because they’re choosy
they’ll end up lonely instead of living boldly
nothing seems cozy and they live quite coldly
slowly, they’ll realize looks are phony
and all they wanted was something showy
but they’ll never realize homely
because their hearts are rather bony -
Read more: no eyes
creation of happiness, it’s a business
an illness, you can’t even witness
every christmas, you wish, you’ve had enough
but what’s not a given
you don’t realize you’re happy until you’re sad
it takes a goodbye to realize
real happiness hypnotizes
you don’t sympathize until you see without eyes
you must visualize before your eyes victimize -
Read more: it’ll be alright
i’ve loved a lot of people
that doesn’t make me a bad person
it doesn’t make me an angel, that’s most certain
it’s like living in a circus and you’re an orphan
you want this attention, looking in every direction
essentially a pension, you have no intention
yet it arrives and the first sentence
you never learned your lesson
you never struck vengeance
your loves presense, it’s endless
it has no vendetta
the engine runs free
there’s no suspension
the seven before, they’re a legend
they live in essence
no evanescence
antidepressants can’t lessen the crescents
they left behind from the other night
but remember, you’ll be alright
it’ll be bright
the height might contrite
but i promise
you’ll be alright -
Read more: comfort zone
this zone, it’s comfortable
i don’t know anything else
i don’t trust anything else
this bubble, if i let go, i’ll show vulnerable
anything’s capable, i’ll be in trouble
the couple, they’ll chuckle
the puddle, it’ll crumble
all i’ll want to do is cuddle
i know what’ll happen, i’ll buckle and i’ll bundle
those knuckles, they’ll strike
i won’t be fine
it’ll all be because i let go
you don’t even know
the snow, it’ll grow
i’ll end up froze
somewhere i don’t know
and it’ll all be because
i let go
you don’t even know…
